Thursday, August 26, 2010


Selepas solat Asar semalam aku menangis sepuas-puasnya. Rindunya hati ini...

Hati ini makin sayu
Terkenangkan desa permai
Wajah ayah bonda
Bermain di mata
Mengajak ku pulang ke desa
Di hari bahagia
Hari raya

Lama ku tunggu
Bertemu di pagi mulia
Namun tidak kesampaian
Air mata jatuh berlinangan

Ku ingin berulang
Manisnya bersama
Menyambut hari bahagia

Jarak memisahkan
Rindu pertemuan
Bilakah hasrat jadi nyata

Duhai ayah bonda
Ampunkan anakanda
Tak dapat beraya bersama

Jauh dari mata
Dekat dalam jiwa
Teguh kasihku tak berubah

Lama ku tunggu
Bertemu di pagi mulia
Namun tidak kesampaian
Air mata jatuh berlinangan

Saturday, August 21, 2010

Time to express myself - again

I've been really quiet for quite sometime . It's not that nothing interesting happen to my life, in fact so many things happened. And I believe things happen for a reason. I have to say that 2009-2010 are the most challenging years. I have come to a certain understanding thinking of God must want to prepare me for a bigger challenge in my life.

Dear Allah, Please give me strength to live this life without Mama & Abah besides me. I'm coping well-at times. But sometimes I do break down and cry thinking all the coming days without my parents around. I cherished all the good times and bad times we had. They had given me the best and now it's time for me to do the same thing to my children.

Thank you Allah swt for the happiness and sadness.

Lets do this. I want to write again.

Saturday, March 06, 2010


Yes, I am back in this blog. Will start writing again.

Just in case, you ve been wondering what happen to me after my delivery for my little girl/ Well let us put it as I was lost in transition in my role as a mother, daughter and a wife-and as a boss at work. But now, everything seems to fall into places and yeah, I am good and happy and love love love to write again. I feel good, praise to Allah.

Monday, June 29, 2009

She's finally here! My Kasih Salsabila

On 19 June 09 at 925am, Kasih Salsabila was born. Syukur, alhamdullilah di atas anugerah yang terindah ini. A healthy baby girl weight 3kg, length at 51 cm.

View her first video clip:

shot and edited by her proud dad

Monday, June 15, 2009

Counting Days : 4 days

Just got back from my last check up.

Baby is still breech. I ll admit on thursday after midnight. According to the doctor, my c sec will be on 830am on Friday. Gosh, though this is my second experience, I m still nervous. I guess it goes the same to all moms kan? eventhough its your second or third or forth time experience. The 'debaran' is still the same. Pheww...

I'm taking half day work starting from today (shishh, got interview session at 3pm today). So I guess starts from tomorrow then... Need to get a good rest and stress free mode from now on.

Tuesday, June 09, 2009

Counting Days: 10 Days

Baby is still breech.

I am really exhausted. Yesterday went to shop for E am stuff in Jaya Jusco, fell like fainted. I was sweating like mad and my body is so tired. Waiting for E am to finish his sushi feels like forever. I almost fell asleep in Subway while having our take out sandwiches. Ya Allah, kuatkan lah semangat hambamu ini...I ve not been sleeping well for the past few days. I probably slept for 4 hours. My trips to loo increased. Major reason that I can t have my sleep is the short of breath, heartburn at times. Senak. Baby's head is still below my rib cage (ouch, yes it still hurts). I ve been yawning, my eyes n my head seems so heavy. Last night, I woke up 4 times and for me to continue sleeping is such a big effort. Lucky my zikir and alfatihah helps me to feel at ease.

Yesterday was my check up. Bp good. urine good. baby good. now weight at 2.8kg.

Let s hope that my new bundle of joy will be in my arms in another 10 days.

“ Tuhanku berilah kepadaku ( seorang anak) dari anak-anak yang soleh”

Monday, June 01, 2009

35 weeks

Mengah. Short of breath. Uncomfortable.

Thats summarize what I m goin thru for the past 2 weeks and I believe in another 2 or 3 weeks more. Phewww...penatnyaa...
At this point of time, I just can t wait to deliver my baby. Just got back from my medical check ups. Baby now weight at 2.7kg(E am's weight when I deliver him at 36w, 4 years ago). I am now in my 35 weeks. Baby tummy is breech. Her head is just below my rib cage (ouchh!) and her legs is pushing down my bladder ( Arghh!). So it explain why my trip to the restroom is endless and the short of breath. At times I feel like somebody is stabbing me just below my rib cage. Huwaaa...sakit woo...

So for now, we are looking at giving birth on the 38w with a plan caesarean. Insyallah...19 days to go.

I am preparing myself for the new arrival and also leaving all the office works. Hopefully, everything is ok...amin...