No more tears

Yes,no more tears. No more kesian mama. No more all the negative thoughts.Guys,if i ever talk about negative stories..knock me on head ya!hehheheh...
From today, I wish to remain as positive as i can be. After all that's what i ve been taught since small. All these dugaan from Allah is for a reason. One of the reason is for me to tawakal, menerima takdir dan qada & qadar.But at the same time berikhtiar and not to give up hope. Thank you Azrai&Sity for introducing me to 'the secret'book. It really makes me feel good and I'm trying my very best to be a positive thinker. I think everybody should read this book.It educate us on how we actually can heal our self and to achieve anything that we want by controlling our mind.And of course besides this, we will always look for the best treatment to fight cancer. And if we do not find it, just have laugh.After all, laughter is the best medicine and its free!
I would like to thank you for all the support/prayers for my mama.Mudah-mudahan dengan berkat doa kalian, dapat melegakan dan memberi semangat untuknya.aminn..
Mama is doing great for the past few days. Some people don't even believe that she got cancer in her.She eats well, she laugh , she's just like herself.But at times, when some visitor/caller who don't know how to react to cancer patient,will actually torn her into pieces again. Hmmm...therefor, i wish to share on how we can help cancer patient to fight this.
1.Let us not mention they are a cancer patient.Name them 'CANCER SURVIVOR'.
2.Instead of talking about their sickness, talk about happy/inspired stories or any issue that got nothing to do with cancer.
3.Act normal.Don't pity them.Be happy.
4.Bring your positive energy her that's the least you can do.

Its not how long you live, it's how well you live you life.
insyallah....

good day ahead

There are good days and bad days with cancer. Today i would say, its a good day so far.It give me a great pleasure when i manage to make mama smile. A laughter is like a bonus to me. E -am is my tool to make mama forget all her sadness.I'm reading 'Healing cancer emotionally ' by a psychiatrist specialised in cancer patients.Mama said she wants to go for a holiday next week. Yey! She's taking the next step and I'm very happy.hmm...nak gi mana yek?

Everything happen for a reason

After mama's 4th day of her chemo, life have been challenging for everyone of us especially mama.Most of the time she's tired and fall asleep for few hours(this is very rare for her).Everytime i see her, i know dia tak putus-putus berzikir...She's been crying a lot...more than i ever knew her.At times, while we just have a simple conversation, she will cry.Abah can't sleep at night.I know he's worried.Me?Its a lie if i say everything is ok. I do have my breakdown at times.But I try my best not to breakdown in front of mama. I know everything happen for a reason. Pasti ada hikmah di sebalik ujian Allah ini.

Dear Friends,

For those who know personally my mom, last 2 days she was diagnosed as a cancer patient. Tomorrow she ll start her first chemo session. I hope all of us would pray for her to face all the challenge and mudah-mudahan dengan berkat doa semua, dia dipanjangkan umur.aminnn...
And as for now, i ll devote all my time for my dear mama.I might not write too often but i ll update when i have free time.

i like to take a quote from kak intan,

orang dapat cancer adalah insan terpilih
Allah pilih untuk hampir kepadanya
untuk bersedia menjadi kekasih dia
InsyaAllah

and Azrai also gave me a good advice on positive thinking

If we were to fake our positive mind, then be it.
Remove physiological stress from the body,
and the body does what it was designed to do.
It heals itself.
Insyallah

*Kak Intan and Azrai is a daughter and son of a fighter in cancer.

Not everyday you see a multitasking man

While I'm having my breakfast at Ampang Puteri yesterday,sitting beside my table was a man with his daughter.What caught my attention was his ability of doing few things at one time. Well, if its the mothers it wont bother me that much.This man probably in his early 30s, having nasi lemak while holding his daughter on his lap.And beside that he is also feeding his daughter while reading a newspaper.fuyoh! 4 perbuatan dalam satu masa. cayalah bang!i salute you!

Good books are the warehouses of ideas -H. G. Wells-

MUST READ BOOKS FOR ALL WORKING WOMAN ESPECIALLY WITH KIDS

CHICKEN SOUP FOR WORKING WOMAN SOUL

*It will definately relief all your stress/tiredness/pressure

Ikon Malaysia Semi Final

For those who miss this show, enjoy!



Yup, they've made it to the FINAL KONSERT.Congrats!

happy birthday

A Special World

A special world for you and me
A special bond one cannot see
It wraps us up in its cocoon
And holds us fiercely in its womb.

Its fingers spread like fine spun gold
Gently nestling us to the fold
Like silken thread it holds us fast
Bonds like this are meant to last.

And though at times a thread may break
A new one forms in its wake
To bind us closer and keep us strong
In a special world, where we belong.

Happy Birthday, my dear sili
You are always young at heart!

You rock man!

Check out Mr Pojee performing with his VI band together with Flop Poppy in Ikon Malaysia this Saturday 830pm.


Sorry for the bad photo.Was too excited watching my sili...:P anyway..kalau nampak dia yang belah kanan sekali tu. I m so proud of you !


me and andy

SAWADIKAPP!

I ll be away to Bangkok from 5 July-9 July.

Making Memories

On my previous entree,

In another 2 weeks time, I ll be leaving to Singapore and try to breakaway from my work. We decide not to bring E-am as its more like a bussiness affair for me and pojee. I know I will miss him soo much but I dont want to drag him to the expo and make myself and pojee go mad pleasing him.

WE DECIDE TO BRING E-AM TO SINGAPORE AND NO REGRETS ABOUT IT!


I m so glad to we decide to bring this little creature along with us in Singapore. I HAD A BLAST with e-am there. It was a split decision actually...hehehe.last minute decision with a condition if Tok Ma(my mama) coming, then E-am is coming too! After few days of thinking(tok ma pon suspen nak travel ngan e am), finally tok ma said YES! heheheh thanks mama...we are making memories with e am this time.



E am toksah cakap la kan, excited yang tak terkata. We even prepared ourselves mentally and physically for this trip. Besides our personal stuff, I packed along some of his fav toys and also a portable DVD player with his fav DVD (my son is easily bored ok, so need to have lots of backup plan)
We also decide not to stay in Singapore hotels as the rate is like double/triple for the original fair due to the broadcast asia week. I would rather spend those money in shopping rather than sleeping in 3star hotel for RM500 per day. So we spend 3 nites in Bluewave Hotel in Johor with RM370/nite for family suite. Excellent!
I would like to share some happy/funny/unforgetable moments during this trip:



• the first time e am enter the hotel, he gone mad! He is running round and round the suite. Masuk bilik kluar bilik, masuk toilet klua toilet, bukak almari, masuk almari. Peti ais pon dia bukak. tgk cermin cakap sorang2. pastu when he went to the living room with a 'WOW' expression...adehlaaa budak nih. Bukak tingkap he said 'CC!' (KLCC) padahal nampak bandar johor jek...hahhaha

• In singapore, there's a lot of car similar to manggis mobil. Everytime he saw that kind of car, he'll say 'GANGGISH!'...

• In Vivocity, there's a lot of water feature around the mall. He said 'Mummy, mummy.. swim, swim!'. Adeilaaa...aku macam marathon kejar dia nak terjun dlm water sculpture/fountain.

• On his first time ride on MRT, he were so excited he's finally on a train. Mula-mula naik, he closed his ears sebab bunyi kuat sangat and yang paling horor skali when we need to change the train, he is crying like mad.nangis macam dah kena tinggal train..satu station tengok...grrrr...saba je lah!

-I think this incident is the most unforgettable.
Imagine this:
On our way back from Singapore, we stop by at the 7eleven to buy some drinks.Elok je Pojee turun keter, my 'anak bertuah ni' terus je melompat ke driver seat.Tengah elok-elok dia berangan-angan bawak keter, bapak dia datang lalu terkejut lah anak bertuahku ini. Terus dia melompat menyelamatkan diri daripada kena marah ngan abah dia. Dalam dok dia melompat tu, kaki cik e am ni macam terlanggar kat gear keter, I tot tade apa lah kan...sikit je.Bila Pojee nak masuk gear je, tak bleh masuk..apa lagiiiii(as we all know pojee) mengamok lah dia! Antara ayat2 yang aku ingat Pojee marah anak bertuah dia nih is' Apa dah e am buat kat kete abah nih?habis takleh masuk gear!rosak dah kete nih!cable tercabut nih!' Sambil terpinga-pinga cik e am nengok abah dia ngamok dia ckp 'mummy..mummy,roshakk(rosak) aaa.babutttt(cabut)....pastu Pojee sebok dok telepon orang nak tanya camne nak setel, panic dengan telepon ke sana ke mari...datang je abah dia masuk kete, cik e am cakap ' Abah..... lagu?' Ada hati lagi tuuu mintak laguuu setelah abah dia ngamok...aku n mama ketawa sampai kuar air mata masa tu .....i can even laugh until now thinking of that


I'm so glad that I'm making all this wonderful memories with my dear son. I enjoy every minute of our time together.Children they are tend to be annoying and distracting at times but we need to enjoy this moment while we can.In another 20 years he probably wont even need you this much.
My new self discover : I discover this making memories can be done anywhere, anytime. You just need to realise and embrace the moment !

Bonjour!

Wahaaa...I finally finished reading 'Weekend in Paris' by Robyn Sisman after 2 weeks reading.Phewww...

Synopsis:
It only takes a weekend to change your life!

Weekend in Paris is the story of Molly Clearwater, a well-read 21-year-old country girl who's never done anything exciting or dramatic-until now.

One Friday afternoon, smarting from her boss's taunt that she's "just a secretary," Molly quits her job and boards the Eurostar for Paris. Within hours of arriving in the bewitching world of leafy boulevards, luscious foods and crazy traffic, she's a woman transformed. A real femme sauvage! Soon she's racing along the Seine on the back of a scooter with her cheek laid against the warm back of a smouldering Frenchmen, infiltrating a conference in a Cleopatra wig, and sharing with a complete stranger her deepest, darkest secret. By Sunday night, after a dizzying carousel-ride of passion, excitement and self-discovery, Molly's a new person.

My Review:
Its light and easy reading and quite adventurous. But it's too much of goody, fantasy and too easy to predict. It's suitable for teenagers who seek for their true identity in life. Maybe, if I'm in that category, i might enjoy it then...oops, I sounds OLD.
GRRRR

Taman Melawati aka Beverly Hills

It's not like everyday you bump into few well known people all in one place. Me and Pojee had late lunch in KFC, Taman Melawati. On the way there, we bump into Khadijah Ibrahim. Cantik lagii makcik nih! When we enter KFC, we saw Dato' Ahmad Nawab and Shidee. Dua- dua dok layan makan KFC dengan kusyuknya... Then later, tengah kami pulak layan makan, Steve Thorton pulak masuk beli KFC. Aik, hebat btul Taman Melawati nih. Rasa macam duk kat Beverly Hills la pulak kan...

Allah itu maha kaya. Maha pemurah dan mengasihani.

alhamdullilah syukur...

The best is yet to come

I believe that everybody have their own journey of life. Everyone of us have our own dreams to pursue everyday...I live my life everyday dreaming of getting something I dont have now but maybe over the years, I might get it. I know a lot of us do the same too..There's nothing wrong with dreaming because dreams DO come true IF YOU PUT IT IN REALITY AND WORK FOR IT (being 'mat jenin' wont work ya)



Over the years of building Manggis, I realised that I have a lot to be proud of. NOT on myself but to the people in manggis which I now name them, MANGGISIANS. Looking at each of everyone progress have somehow make myself 'bersyukur'. On my prayers, I always pray to 'murahkan rezeki Manggis supaya dapat dikongsi dengan yang lain'. And alhamdullilah, everyone of us still have a place to stay, nice cloth to wear everyday, gadgets to buy , endless sms to our love ones and most of all almost everyone in Manggis will gain weight after few years working (except for me lah kan, akak maintain ok!). Aha! that means semua cukup or likely lebih makann..alhamdullilah...syukurr...I'm glad that over the years of hard work, Manggisians have gone to Singapore and Bali twice ( don't we just miss restu bali and ketupat and jinbaran and and...).


From just the two of us(me and pojee) doing video weddings, we are now 10 members all together. 3 of them are my x students. Riza who is back than a 'ketua murid' in his class at EDI ( my first job as a lecturer) was the first employee in Manggis. He starts his journey with zero knowledge in video editing, travels from cheras to Tmn Melawati by lrt/bus and no girlfriend (eh yeke?). Now, Riza can edit wedding videos like peanuts, travel by car, support his family and definately have a girlfriend.(bila nak edit video sendiri nih?).

Jon who is from Tgganung kita is known for his MIA(missing in action) during classes but have talent in design. I always scold him for not being consistent in his work and his lack of communication with me. Alhamdullilah, I personally can see the difference in him over the years. He's now producing much better and consistent work, wish me good morning when he came early or sorry, saya datang lambat when he's late (denda tetap kena ye..but that attitude i like).
Maphia (who is not that mafia) came to manggis later after Jon. Back than, he use to balik kampung( Seremban) by the komuter and own no fancy stuff. Now we call him as 'Mat Gadget'. You name it, any new gadgets from apple products to crumpler bag will be exhibit in his cubicle. And lately he's no longer to be seen in any lrt/komuter station. They who before I refer as a fresh grad in graphics, now is a multimedia designer with a multiple skills from video editing, designing and the videographer who capture THE MOMENT at Manggis.


Next is our Project Manager. Anuar(aka nuat) is my junior in MMU who I ve known for his skills in communication and passion in bussiness. I do remember in my uni years, when me and pojee opened up a stall during the convo and nuat was just around the corner selling drinks. From nasi tomato to car rental, u named it. He has done it all. His journey in Manggis starts with a Kriss motorbike (which is not proportion in his size), single, ambitious and confius I must said. Over 2 years plus, he's now a proud husband and owner of his new alfa. In another 4 months, he'll be joining in the 'father's club'. With his passion in bussiness, I hope we can see Manggis branch somewhere in the North soon,insyallah.

The youngest of us is definitely Fahmy. When he join us, he was just 19, blur and thin. Looking at that age, we know what to expect from this age group. For over 2 years of lecturing and scolding, he whom just turn 21 ( baru legal masuk disco fahmy oiii!), have showed at least an improovements in design but still not on his TIME. And by the way, he gain few kilos here and there.The 3 other people, Ra, Yasser and Haidar have not work up to 1 year. So I prefer to give them some time to proove themselves and I will be happy writing this sort of entree about their achievements in the future.
As for me and pojee, we both are so glad to be part of this. Glad to share the rezeki with this individuals. Happy to see them getting married, buying new car, tukar sport rim moto, to be able enjoying their life and to be a better person. We realised that each of everyone of us are different yet we compliment each other with our positive and negative way. Every each of our milestone is an accomplishment to every one at Manggis. Every achievement is a teamwork success.

Let us not to forget that we still have a long journey to go. More things need to be learn, to accomlplish in our lifes and be a better wife, husband, son, daughter , friend, collegue, boss, staff and most of all TO BE WHAT WE WANT TO BE. I'm not expecting that they will be in Manggis forever but I hope they learn something here and I learn something from them too. I hope they remember that we have lots of fond memories back in Manggis. As for now(since we are still Manggisians, dont we) let us keep the spirit burning and keep on capturing those wonderful moments of our clients. I hope we will continue improoving ourself for the future to come.

The best is yet to come.

SELALU DENGANMU by TOMPI

adakah waktu yg tak berbatas
untukku merasa bahagia
saat-saat aku jatuh cinta
saat ku terbang jauh ke sana

**: selalu denganmu
kasihku selamanya
selalu denganmu
cintaku bersama

kaulah matahari dalam hidupku
dan kaulah cahaya bulan di malamku
hadirmu selalu akan ku tunggu
cintamu selalu akan ku rindu

A note to my sili bili

Through the laughter
Through the tears
Through the months
And through the years
Through all we've seen
And all that's been
Through the old
And all that's new
I'm forever grateful
That I have found you

muahs!muahs!

Things happen for a reason :P

Amboi sakan !

Amboiiii fishie..sakan hang aa...nampak sangat tak buat keje. 5 entree satu hari nih. Sakan hang no!
dah sudah.